I’m stumped. Not by a plot problem – although I had a
hefty one until yesterday – but boggled by the enormity of the book I’m
writing. By remembering each viewpoint
character’s separate and overlapping plotline, not to mention the secrets I want
embedded in this book. Writing in first
person was so simple -- this multi-stuff is exhausting. Then I worry that I don’t have enough importance in my book. And emotion and loss and fear and happy
moments and on and on.
I recall the constant, personal urgings
of an old teacher, and know that I haven’t pushed parts of this story as far as
they will go. If he were standing,
looking over my shoulder, he’d be saying, “Carolyn, Carolyn. Write bigger. Write BIGGER!”
*Sigh*. My outline feels all over the place – reworked
a hundred time, highlighted, stapled, spindled, folded and mutilated. Today I can blame my not-wanting-to on sore eyes – they’re sensitive to light. Yesterday, I was busy with a luncheon and
teaching. The day before that….
A week ago, I can’t tell you the obstacles!
So here’s what to do. I guess.
“Self,” I say. “Go to the chapter
you’re working on. And finish it. It’s a humdinger, you know it is. Then listen to where that chapter takes
you. If it’s on the outline map, write
it. If not – does it need to be?”
One step at a time might save me
today.
I just want all the other writers
in this world to know – you’re not alone.
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